Anaïs’ Nin’s Diaries 1934-39 cover her last months in New York -- psychoanalysis under the tutelage of Otto Rank -- and her years in Paris living on a houseboat that came equipped with its own peg-legged skipper. Nin’s diaries are fascinating to me for the same reason that Last Night’s Party is fascinating to a hipster with a cocaine nose-bleed.
The portrait Nin painted of the intellectual community, which she fostered in Paris, was alive with brilliant colors, brilliant for her understanding of the vagaries of human character. Nin’s pen was subcutaneous – she got beneath the skin of some of the great artists, writers, and aesthetes of her time. Moreover, the diaries exposed the difficulties of reading the writer into his/her work or vice versa.
After reading for a while, I began to feel connected to a certain literary universe that I’d only been vaguely aware of before. The amazing thing about the diary, which differentiates it from the biography, or most personal journals, for that matter, was the ability Nin had to balance looking inward and looking outward. The figures that appear in Nin’s diaries are multi-faceted; sometimes she just recounts what they did and said, sometimes they become her own characters (her portraits of these figures often appeared in her fiction in disguise, notably, in Under a Glass Bell). Nin had discovered a secret cross-current between fiction and real life and for her it flowed like the most turbulent underground river. Reading the diaries, one gets the sense that the community of authors met there with their community of books, or if you can imagine a costume ball orchestrated by Ferdinand Pessoa, or a masquerade of Babel ala Borges, where persons come disguised as authors, authors come disguised as characters, and everyone comes disguised as the figures in Nin’s portraits. It will be a hard time telling who is disguised as who, but you can be sure that everybody’s dancing in the same grand ballroom.
I had liked Miller’s Tropic of Cancer when I read it a long time ago, but I always disliked the idea of Henry Miller without knowing anything about him. It must have been a nagging suspicion that anyone sleazy enough to write Tropic must have been even sleazier in the flesh. When I read his charming mini-novella The Smile at The Foot of the Ladder, I became even more confused. Who was this Henry Miller? After reading Nin’s diaries, I realized that the contradictory nature, the sleaze and beauty that Miller wrote about were not necessarily Henry Miller – really, the dialectical relationship between those two forces was something closer to the real Henry Miller. Miller’s books only hinted at this self, Nin grasped it (one day she'd be praising Henry for his insight and inventiveness; the next day she'd be condemning him for his detachment and short-sightedness). She was the better writer of the two.
Nin’s community is, of course, bigger than just Anaïs and Henry. I met some old and new friends: Artaud shows up on several occasions; the shrink, Allendy, who Artaud used to beg for drugs is around; there’s parties at Carpentier’s house before he wrote The Lost Steps; there’s Laurence Durrell; there’s the shadow of Andre Breton, or at least the shadow of his hard-won arrogance.
Aside from those obfuscating textual masturbations that give me so much pleasure, there’s also Nin’s brilliant portrait of the intellectual community of the time, the generation that squeezed between the traditions of the early American moderns of the lost generation like Hemingway, Stein, and Fitzgerald, and the beats like Kerouac, Burroughs, and Ginsburg, who would pick up the torch a decade or so later. As far as I know, Nin’s generation in Paris is nameless. They not only had to squeeze between the fattened calves that were the literary talents of those generations, there was also the Great Depression; the arts had been wiped out of Germany by the Third Reich, following the short-lived decadence of the Wiemar Republic, Spain was war-torn with more than one brilliant mind on the front line; in short, their importance was overshadowed by war and politics.
Anaïs Nin’s work possesses a rare sense of desperation and her contemporaries knew that it wasn’t hard to see the black clouds on the horizon. They only had so much time before their homes would be reduced to smoldering ruins. In a strange way, reading Nin’s diaries gives an optimistic luster to many writers who seemed, on first read to be staring into the mouth of hell as they wrote. In Miller and Durrell’s prose, awash with the scum of humanity, and Artaud’s writings, the scum of the mind, Nin allows us to reevaluate the sense of desperation. Writers don’t rush to finish their masterwork when the inevitability of universal death hangs over their shoulders, they rush to finish something because that sense of doom contains the possibility of new life.